Series: Ruin Series
Author: Rachel Van Dyken
Release Date: October 6
Everything done in darkness, will eventually be brought into the light.
I ran, but all it did was keep me one step ahead of my past. I tried to start over; new name, new identity. But you can’t change your soul.
A fresh start at college was just what I needed. For a while, it worked. I was the party girl, the one that seemed confident, but it was a lie.
When guys kissed me–I felt only pain.
When they touched me–Nothing but fear.
Deep inside, every girl wants to be the beauty in the story, to find someone that will see you as their world.
But the truth? I was the beast. And as much as I wanted redemption, I wasn’t fool enough to think I’d ever get it.
Until he walked into my life.
I wasn’t prepared to fall for someone. My scars were too deep, the wounds too raw. But he offered me peace, he offered me security. I should have known it was just another lie–I should have known that falling in love with my professor was a bad idea.
But I was powerless to stop myself from falling.
And he was powerless to catch me.
Because the darkness finally caught up to me, and as fate would have it, a cruel twist almost bled me dry. But I’m stronger than I knew. I’m stronger than you think.
You think you know my story, but you don’t….after all everyone has Shame in their lives– and I’m no longer afraid to show you mine.
I closed my eyes and leaned my forehead against hers. A shaky breath escaped her lips. “I’m going to kiss you now.”
“Are you trying to prepare me or ask permission?” she whispered, her voice beckoning me like a siren’s call.
“Both.” My lips hovered near hers. “I figure it’s only fair.”
“Fair?” She pulled back slightly. “How so?”
“Ten thousand.” I angled my head and watched the pulse jump on her neck. “That’s how many nerve endings, on average, are in your lips. Consequently, when your body anticipates pleasure, the build-up is the best part. Imagine, those ten thousand nerves are swelling, allowing blood to surge through them in anticipation of… what?” I swept my tongue across her lower lip and whispered, “Of being touched. I ask permission, not because I’m being a gentleman. It’s actually the complete opposite. I ask permission so your brain anticipates the pleasure before I’ve ever even touched you.”
I tasted her lower lip again and abruptly dipped my tongue into her mouth. Then just as quickly retreated. “The human body is an instrument. Know how to master it… and well…” I let my voice drop as I moved my hands slowly to her shoulders and tugged her body flush against mine. Our mouths met softly at first. I deepened the kiss, memorizing her taste, knowing I wouldn’t experience a kiss like this again in my lifetime. The way her scent, her soft moans destroyed my body, wrecked me from the deepest part of me, was nothing short of life-altering.
And I’d like to think I’d kissed a lot of women.
I’d studied the psychology of sexuality.
I was an expert in pleasure.
But she was schooling me, absolutely wreaking havoc on every logical thought as her soft whimper cascaded over me. Blood surged through my body as it tightened with awareness at her proximity.
She pulled back, her lips swollen. “That was… not a good enough warning.”
Laughing softly, I cupped the back of her head and gently drew it toward mine and kissed her again, angling my lips differently, searching her, consuming her, drawing pleasure from her lips as if it was my life goal to discover every single secret she owned.
Her arms wrapped around my neck. She was shy; she didn’t push against me, didn’t wrap her legs around me or moan into my mouth like I was having sex with her rather than kissing her.
My hands moved down her corset to her hips, and I lifted her into the air and walked her backward toward the brick wall. The whole time, our masks collided. In frustration, I ripped hers off, then mine. The shadows of moonlight hid our faces as I kissed her harder, losing myself in her.
Her nails dug at the back of my neck as she jerked my head harder. Groaning, I let her fall to the ground as I placed my hands on the brick wall to keep myself from ripping the dress from her body.
Shouting started from the ballroom.
“Eight,” I whispered against her mouth. “Seven.”
“Six.” She sighed, her breathing labored as her tongue found mine again. “Five.”
“Four, three.” I pulled back and trailed kisses down her neck.
We broke apart, both breathing heavy. “One.”
People burst out onto the balcony as the fireworks started, lighting up the sky. And our faces.
And the only thing I could say as she gasped in horror was “Oh, shit.”
Shame, by Rachel Van Dyken — What can I possibly say to convey my feelings about this book. You know what, I can’t. There are just no words to do this justice. If you thought that the first books in the series moved you, prepare for Shame to rock your boat!
When we first met Lisa in Ruin she seems to have the perfect life. She is happy upbeat and the life of the party. As the series moves forward we begin to see hints that all is not calm, peaceful and pretty beneath the beautiful exterior she puts forth. She has scars that run very deep. So deep that she doesn’t even share these secrets, wounds or the current troubles she is facing with her best friends until she is cornered and her hand is forced.
Tristan walks in to Lisa’s life as her college professor. He is everything you ever dreamed in your naughty professor fantasies! But like Lisa, while the packaging is phenomenal he comes with his own baggage and secrets that he is hiding from Lisa.
Will Tristan and Lisa find their way to true love? Will their pasts and secrets be too much to overcome? Will the twists and turns that RVD throws into this book break you?
This is a book that will make you feel a huge range of emotions. I don’t want to say too much, because I truly feel that you need to experience this for yourself. But I can say that I was entirely invested from the get go. Even when my friends were reading it, and messaging me to hold their hand as they read – I was thrown right back into the story line, even though I knew exactly what would happen. Rachel Van Dyken had my heart invested in the story, she had me fully caught up in the story and she had me on the edge of my seat until the very end. And, OH MY! What. An. Ending! (That’s all I can say about it. But, wow! Just you wait!!!)
And for those huge fans of the Ruin series – we get to see all of our old friends – Wes, MY MAN Gabe, Kiersten & Saylor. They all make appearances and play a role in Lisa’s story.
I cannot recommend this book and this series highly enough. For me this is an absolute MUST READ book/series. These will forever be on the very top of my favorite books!
I received a complimentary copy of Shame from the author in exchange for an honest review.
Rachel Van Dyken is the New York Times, Wall Street Journal, and USA Today Bestselling author of regency and contemporary romances. When she’s not writing you can find her drinking coffee at Starbucks and plotting her next book while watching The Bachelor.
She keeps her home in Idaho with her Husband and their snoring Boxer, Sir Winston Churchill. She loves to hear from readers! You can follow her writing journey at www.rachelvandykenauthor.com